For the longest time, I thought I wasn’t good enough to be more that what I was. I thought that what ever life gave me I had to settle for it. I thought that if something better was out there, it would find me and accept me with all of my baggage.
That way of thinking had me sitting on my couch, watching whatever was on television, drinking whatever someone handed to me. I just didn’t care about bettering myself. I only wanted to get through that day, make it to bed, sleep and wake up and do it all again.
My life was never bad, it just wasn’t what I wanted it to be. I didn’t want it to be the way it was. I just didn’t know how to change it. I was chained to my old way of living.
So I was invited to church by an associate of mine. I went and learned about this program called Freedom. Summarized: It was a small group program where you go read about being free in Christ. I met weekly with a group of ladies for a type of bible study. (I missed a few lessons, because of traveling with my work)
One thing I learned was that God doesn’t want us stuck. You know that feeling you get when you can’t move forward because you don’t know what forward is, and the past is clinging to you, all that shame and guilt, those chains or bags. God doesn’t want us to have that feeling. He wants us FREE! Let it go bag lady.
He doesn’t want me worrying and stressed, all of that is a distraction and it keeps me from worshipping him. I made that decision to be free. Free of all that shame, guilt, etc. I sat my bags down and started walking towards freedom and Christ. I do get distracted sometimes and it shows, but I refuse to pick those bags back up. My yoke is so much lighter now.