In my previous post about me being abstinence, I talked about how it wasn’t a conscious decision that I made. I honestly believe that sometimes God plants a decision in my heart to save me from myself.
Remember that song by Mary J. Blige “Real Love”, well like Mary I thought love was something I had to search for and find. I couldn’t for the life of me figure out where love was hiding at. I searched everywhere for love.
When I thought I found love, I would compromise myself to hold onto love. I mean once you find what you’re looking for you can’t just let it slip away.
It took me a few failed relationships, but I slowly discovered that love isn’t hiding, it’s right in front of my eyes.
I’m a visual learner, show me an example of something and I’m pretty good at copying it. My visual is the love God has for me. The unconditional, no compromising, it doesn’t make me wish I hadn’t done it, type of love. The type of love that I’m happy with.
The best feeling is knowing that in spite of what I’ve done and how much I thought I failed him, his love is always still right there. I don’t have to make him stay, he doesn’t want to leave. I don’t have to find him, he is always near.
God is Love.
So to me, Happy 1 year Anniversary of living in true love! Stay in love and don’t ever compromise yourself!!!
1 John 3:1-3