This past week has been mentally and emotionally challenging for me. I’m not giving credit to any negativity so I won’t go into details of what has happened. I will say that I have been tested on so many different levels.
Right in the midst of happiness a slight reminder that you aren’t as far removed from your past as you would like to be.
That won’t make me go back though. I can’t go back. I don’t even know who I was then. This me, I love this me, she is resilient, vulnerable, humble, empathetic, caring, kind and improving daily. Every day this new me makes a conscious decision to give myself to God completely. Daily I sacrifice myself to him. Some days are much harder than others. Some days I make it halfway through the day without making an effort to talk with God. Some days I wake up and immediately begin a conversation with God. Everyday I feel his presence, his encouragement for me to keep going forward. Don’t look back. Keep pushing towards him.
Why would I give all that up for a few minor or major set backs. I can’t go back and I don’t want to go back.