I’m headed into a new season of my life. I know this because I feel my thoughts shifting. My goals are more thought out and my blessings are coming more frequently. When I look back over my life I can see the different seasons of growth that I have lived through. Each season played an intricate role in me being who I am today. The changes of life’s seasons have always been scary to me. By design I crave stability and the steadiness that comes with that stability. The idea of going through something and not knowing if I will come out the same on the other side has, and always will be, scary. What if I don’t like who I become?
The thought of me changing into someone I don’t like, has halted my growth in life in so many different ways. I know that I will still reach my ultimate life goal, but the detours that I have caused for myself were long and hard.
The ending of my season of me being “intentional in every aspect of my life”, has prepared me for this new season of “accepting growth”.
The ability to acknowledge and accept changes that have taken place in my life hasn’t been easy. I sometimes find myself purposely reverting back to what was familiar for me. Simply because familiar is easier. Why do I have to adopt these new habits of self care and self control? Why do I have to accept my failures? Why do I need to change?
Those are rhetorical questions of course. Some questions we already know the answer to, but we ask them anyway.
When I write down all that I have been through over the last 33 years, I focus on the positive, that’s my attempt nonetheless, I try to stay clear of all of the failures. The failures aren’t something to be ashamed of though, they too were blessings. My failures were, and still are, developing me to walk boldly into my new season of life. If I am headed in the wrong direction a failure comes along to help me readjust my path.
I am so excited for what lies ahead in my season of acceptance.
Have you ever looked in the mirror and loved the person looking back at you? Not for the physical features, but because that person lived through everything that was supposed to break them and they learned from those situations. Those situations became lessons, the lessons became seasons, the seasons produced growth.
Head held high I look forward to a new season of life, where I am growing and making mistakes, making mistakes and growing.
1 Samuel 10:6